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Thursday, October 28, 2010

naluri remaja ku terganggu....

not a really good day for me....mlm td mimpi nth pape lps tgk ilmu alam ghaib kt tv3...bgn pg kol 7..terlepas smyg subuh...xsmpt wt bfast utk nenek...g keje hmpir terlanggar moto...bukan slh aku pn...moto tu y bute...xnmpk aku bg signal...klo aku bwk kete buruk mmg aku lggr jek...nk hon2 nk pndg2 lak...nsb aku bwk kete makcik aku...so knela berhemah...kete org...amanat org...xley nk wt sukati...mne g kete aku?tunang aku pnjm sbb road tax kete die mati...n road tax die xley nk idupkn sbb saman y byk blm disettlekn...knp xbyr smn?bkn sbb wet...tp sbb die skt gg yang teramat smpai nk pecah pale katenye...aku xpnh rse so aku tataw sktnye cmne...da 2 ari die mkn pain killer n tdo jek...n 2 ari la aku rse cm xde tunang...tpon pn xley ckp sbb skt..soh dtg anta kete pn xley sbb die ckp nnt bergegar kete gg skt...nthla...kdg2 aku tatawla nk rse bersyukur ke x sbb aku xpnh skt...bkn nk ckp besa...bkn nk berlagak...bkn nk mntk bala...ataw bkn nk mnte pnyakit...tp slme ni...aku tgk cmne tunang aku kne denggi...smpai msuk ospital...jtuh toilet smpai xley jln...mcm2...n skrg die skt gg smpai xley ckp....aku xpnh rse sume tu...xbf aku pn sme...kjp2 pening...kjp2 demam...mmg sume llaki mudah skt ker??aku ttw cmne rse dimanjekan ble skt...aku ttw skt tu btol2 skt atw skt y still ley ditahan...or whateverla...plg truk aku pnh rse cume senggugut...skt mmg skt tp kjp jek...dmm terakhir aku kene 2taun lps...demam pns tp time tu skandal aku y jage aku...ksmpulannye..org y aku syg xpnh ade kesempatan utk jge aku mse skt...tp sehari jek...xde smpai berhari2...org kate klo kite skt mksudnye tuhan nk hapuskn dose kte..abis klo aku xpnh skt?mksudnye dose aku xpnh terhapus??ataw aku xlayak dimanjekan wktu skt??sbb tu aku xpnh skt??nthla...

aku pnh ckp pd dri aku sndri...pas tunang aku akn berubah...jdk perempuan y baik utk die...tp mkin aku cube berubah...makin jiwe aku skt...ati xtenteram sbb jdk baik...klo dlu aku jrg date ngn tuhan...tp smnjk aku dok uma makcik aku...aku selalu date ngn 'die'..kdg2 ade gk termalas...tp aku still wt...kt tmpt kje ade umat y ckp...xpkai tudung tp smyg...tp aku xksh...klo pkai skirt pn aku smyg jek...segan ke ape ke blkg cte...y pntg aku smyg xde spe y suruh...mslhnye...da smyg pn ati still xtng sbb jdk baik...jiwe memberontak...mgkin sbb xkhusyuk..mgkn sbb tuhan xtrime smyg aku...aku pn xde jwpn utk soklan tu...y pntg aku xbley jdk bek...aku xreti nk berbudi bhse bile berkate2...aku xreti nk bersyukur ngn ape y ade...aku sntiase nk lebih dlm ape jek bnd y aku dpt...n skrg ni aku memberontak sbb aku nk kua melepak....ikut plan asal this week mmg aku nk spend time kt shah alam...nk dok hakim puas2...tatap muke mamak y wt nan tandoori tuh...amk angin kt dataran...abiskn mse mngingati saat2 time kt universiti...aku cume perlukan satu mggu jek...this one whole week...sbb pasni aku da kua dr uma sewe..da xde uma sewe...da xley kua mlm..da xley hangout smpai 2-3 pg lpk kt hakim or mcD...sume bnd aku da xley wt...tp disebabkn tunang aku skt gg...sume bnd xjdk..tuhan nk uji aku ataw nk slmt kn aku?tuhan nk seksa aku untuk jdk baik ataw tuhan nk elakkn aku dr dpt dose sbb wt bnd xberfaedah??

sume soklan y bermain kt otak aku...hny tuhan y tahu...aku stress...ni nsb bekla xde kdt..klo x mst da berperang lagi ngn tunang aku...nsb bek hape...sbb nsb xbekla xde kdt...bil tpon da 2 bln xbyr...prepaid pn xtopup...bkn nsb baik nmenye...nsb xbaik adela...tunang aku ni pn satu...die mrh aku sms die byk kli mntk kete...klo ari tu die bg kete aku b4 die skt gg xdela aku cmni...aku cm separuh gle thn kemaruk nk g shah alam..xdela ape sgt kt shah alam tu...tp klo stkt lepak tgh mlm swg2 tgk lmpu xde hal la kn...klo kt uma mkcik aku tuh..bkn nmpk lmpu..tkut nmpk bnd len plk...nak2 uma ats bukit...haish....mntk dijauhkn...bkn ape..aku byk ag bnd nk settle kt shah alam...da nk ujung bln...brg xabs angkt ag...wiken da sbuk nk wt kje len..pphmla kn...xkn aku nk bwk kete mkcik aku parking kt shah alam y x berbumbung tuh...klo kete aku xpe gk...tula..ssh ble ade mslh komunikasi cmni...nk ckp dlm tpon xley sbb die xley ckp...bile sms rse xpuas sbb care msg tu dibace xsame nada klo ckp direct...hmmm...

aku ni mampu ke jdk tunang y baik?mampu ke jdk bini y baik?y taat?kdg2 aku rse aku da terlebih bersedie utk kawen...tp ade mse aku rse cm aku blm layak untuk ade suami...pas kwen bley ke lpk2?pas kwen bley kua tgk wyg ngn kwn2?jwpn y aku rse mmg sume owg pn da taw...NO...mne bley...ckp nk jdk bini y baik...knela kua ngn laki jek...tp...............hmmmm....pas tunang ni byk perubahan dlm hubungn kitorang...da xtgk wyg...xmen boling...bkn slh spe2...ni sume dugaan...aku kne pndh...da xdok shah alam...die plak acek ade mslh kwngn...klo dlu...mlm2 aku indah jek dgn xtvt2 y ley wt aku blk uma n xpk pape trus tdo...happy sgt n keletihan smpai nek ktil pn xsmpt pk pape trus tdo..menanti mlm esok y tibe...pegi kuliah just utk mngisi wktu siang...blk kls da bersiap sdie utk have fun...ckp jek cte ape kt wyg y aku xtgk...klo ade pn mb cte tu mmg kompem xbes ataw kitorg terlupe nk tgk..even cite sebodoh cte jalang tu pn kitorang tgk gk...tp tu sume dlu...aku da kehilangn sume tu...bola boling pn da bley bg adk aku pnjm..klo dlu jgn hrpla aku nk bg sbb tu xtvt wjb stiap mlm....skrg ni rse cm ley wt perhiasan jek kot bola tuh....gosh...i'm 22 ok...i'm a teenager...i want my life back...spe y nk bg?xde org y ley bg..sbb aku da wt keputusan utk mlgkh satu tapak kehadapan dlm mnjalinkn ikatan rasmi sbg tunang org...hmmm...aku xksh senanye da bertunang...cume aku stress sbb xdpt kua cm dlu...idup aku da ade rules n regulations...xbley kua mlm...wet pn satu hal...beg duit acek kering jek...nk kua jek kne pk nk save wet utk kwen...perlu ke???bpe sgtla y ley saving klo xkua pn...so...aku sndri da wt ksmpulan...aku stress sbb dri aku sndri...sume slp aku...aku slh sbb mnjekn dri aku dgn sume kebahagiaan...bile tibe saat kebosanan cmni aku rse sesak...skt dade cm nk mati...ttwla nk ckp cmne....

berdose ke aku post bnd cmni?slh ke aku cte mslh emosi y mengganggu dri aku?hopefully tunang aku xmrhla...die da pesan..jgn cte mslh peribadi kt org...tp aku nk cte kt spe lagi...aku xde kwn..xde spe2...xkn blk uma nk cte kt nenek...stress sbb xdpt kua mlm...mmgla nenek xksh...tp jiwe xsame...nenek tny knp aku xnk pkai tudung...pkai tudung ag cntik....knp ek?aku diam jek sbb aku pn xtaw nk jwb ape...ari ni aku pkai skirt g kje...nenek tgk jek...aku slm nenek smbil doa dlm ati...jgn la nenek bersuare...mmg btul..nenek xckp pape...tp stil rse berslh...hmmm..nthla..aku pn ttw aku ni baik ke jht...aku taw sume baik buruk bnd y aku wt...tp aku still plih jln y slh...aku xpuas nk merase sume bnd...esok da tua xbley pkai skirt...xbley nk melaram...tp nikmat tuhan sekejap jek kn...sempat ke nk tua?hmmm....

aku rse cukupla skdr ni jek luahan ati aku...kepade tunang y tersyg..i mntk mntk maaf wt syg cmni...i mntk maaf sbb post psl kite...i mntk maaf sbb xmmahami kesakitan gg u...i mntk maaf sbb i mntk kete byk kli...i mntk maaf sbb i mrh2 u dlm tpon...i xphm n xdgr u ckp ape...dhla i pkai prepaid...kedit kjp jek abis...i mntk maaf utk sume bnd...sume slh i n u xbersalah lgsg...smoge u cpt smbuh...i cume nk ingtkn u...abis jek mggu ni...u xkn dpt mnikmati saat indah hangout dgn i mlm2 ag...idup kite hny ade siang...nk kua ngn i pn just wktu siang...we wont have any night moment....no more liveband..no more bb walk...no more anything y babitkn wktu mlm...smpaila kte kwen...i thought of spending one whole week with u...but we have wasted this week doing nothing...i xley nk slhkn u...bkn u mntk gg u sktkn...so what can i say..nothing...hopefully pasni u dptla fokus pd kerja u...xde gangguan dr i...mlm u indah xberteman...wet u selamat n jimat...smpai bertemu jodoh kite ke pelamin...slmt mnikmati kehidupan bujang kembali...8months to go...smoge u bhgie...next wik i ade interview kt astro...hopefully dpt...gji besa dr company ni...so dptla i kumpul wet...bkn utk kwen...tp utk bli lptop..nk men gem mlm2 utk ilangkn bosan...huhuhuhuh...adios...xoxo....

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

my story album....10.10.10....


hye everyone...another new entry with the same binary number...101010....still not tired with this date...here is the new post of my engagement day....actually i never realized that i can edit pictures and create my engagement day story album...even though it is not so nice...but at least i can do it with my own effort....have fun scrolling down viewing my pics...after this i think i can make money with my skills...no need hdr or any other software...photoshop is enough....hahahahhaha....xoxo....

Sunday, October 24, 2010

HARI RAYA HAJI....

KUIH BANGKIT
BIL
JENIS KUIH
QTY(PCS)
HARGA(RM)
1.Bangkit Kelapa
a)Botol besar
100
18.00
b)Botol sederhana
60
14.00
c)Bekas bulat
50
13.00
d)Botol kecil
40
12.00
2.Bangkit Kacang Hijau
a)Botol besar
120
20.00
b)Botol sederhana
70
15.00
c)Botol kecil
40
12.00
3.Bangkit Bijan
a)Botol besar
120
20.00
b)Botol sederhana
60
14.00
c)Botol kecil
40
12.00
4.Bangkit Nestum
a)Botol sederhana
60
14.00
b)Botol kecil
40
12.00
5.Bangkit Sagun
a)Botol sederhana
60
14.00
b)Botol kecil
40
12.00
6.Bangkit Keladi
a)Botol sederhana
60
14.00
b)Botol kecil
40
12.00
 
7.Bangkit Durian
a)Botol sederhana
60
14.00
b)Botol kecil
40
12.00

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

my engagement day...10.10.10....

salam.....

20.10.2010...another nice date to be remembered...even though no special event on this date...i prefer to post the memory of my engagement day...have fun watching all my pics...huhuhuh...

i think this crazy date of 10.10.10 had filled in most of my blog entries...uhuhuuhu..a big date which is not just for me...for sheikh muzaffar..the actor aqasha... and many more people out there who really want to easily memorize their important event...well...who cares...i got that date...and that's it...i got engaged on that day...i'm happy and 10.10.10 will always be an important date for me...

a perfect day for me...everything is perfect...i'm just too happy on that day..it was actually planned to be just a small event but it turned out to be one of the moment that i wont forget for the rest of my life...it was great....thanks to everyone that involved on that day...my mom and dad...my relatives and everyone that attend on that day....2pm until 10pm...so many people came and they congratulated me as if i got married...hahahahha....but i'm happy with it...thanks to ziana dmuar for the andaman pakej n abg zan who sponsored the fresh flower for my pelamin...it looks grand and i just luv it...kak ziana...u make me look prettier than before...i never knew i can be as pretty as that after the make over...huhuhuh...and the happiest person is my mom when everyone told her that i look like her when she's young...hahhaahha...great...at least i'm not the one who is happy to be praised and i knew my future face 30 years from now....well...it wont be complete for this post if there's no pictures...a review with pics is more interesting right...huhhuhuh...before that...all the pics is taken by opie...one of my relatives...feel free to get his phone number from me if wanna use him as your photographer...huhuhuh....

first thing first...this is me on my engagement day...i just luv myself for being in love and to be loved by my beloved...:)

(picture captured by soleh...edited by my fiance...)

(pelamin anganku....huhuhuhuh....)

(hantaran untuk pihak lelaki 1: sejadah)

(hantaran untuk pihak lelaki 2: chocs n sweets...)

(hantaran untuk pihak lelaki 3: towel...)

(hantaran untuk pihak lelaki 4: samping...)

(hantaran untuk pihak lelaki 5: fruits...)

(hantaran untuk pihak lelaki 6: baju persalinan untuk mlm nikah...)

(hantaran untuk pihak lelaki 7: sireh junjung...)

(rombongan pihak lelaki)

(me and cik maria..penggubah hantaran utk both sides...)

(goodies bag untuk rombongan pihak lelaki)

(a short moment...saat disarungkn cincin oleh wakil rombongan...kak iza @ my fiance's sis...)

(gmbr bersame mama n rombongan pihak lelaki)

(me, kak chik, my future mother-in-law, kak iza n my beloved...)

(sian my dear...nk dok sebelah mama xbg..sbb mama ckp blm byr...hahahaha...)

(me with my grandparent n my dear...syukur sgt atok ngn nenek msih ade untuk saat2 indah camni...smoge atok ngn nenek sht n panjang umo...)

(me with my dearest younger sis...yah...still available..huhuhuh...ade rezeki time ko aku sponsor lak yek...heheheh...)

(me with my eldest sis n her sons...baby muhammad n aizad...aiman is not in the pic..he's not in the mood at that moment...her husband is not there too...dont have the chance to get back from turkmenistan....my sis ni la y sponsor mak andam...heheheh..thx sis...)

(gambar kenangan selepas bertunang...luv u syg...)

(hantaran untuk pihak perempuan 1: choc marshmallow cake...)

(hantaran untuk pihak perempuan 2: telekung...)

(hantaran untuk pihak perempuan 3: baju persalinan untuk mlm nikah...)

(hantaran untuk pihak perempuan 4: cincin pertunangan...)

(hantaran untuk pihak perempuan 5: sireh junjung...)

(me with my beloved mama n papa...thx for everything both of u...i'm too proud to b ur daughter...)

(my happy family...not in the pic are aiman...by 1st bro-in-law..my 2nd sis n her husband)

(gmbr bersame member2...my fiance's friends actually..tp sume da jdk my fren...eheheheh...thanks guys for coming....)

(gmbr bersame tersayang sebelum rombongan lelaki berangkat pulang)

hmmm..rasenye cukupla smpai di sini post sempena mjlis pertunangan yang lepas..hopefully kawen nnt dpt wt lagi grand....heheheheh...kt bwh ni few outdoor pics untuk tontonan umum...gmbr len da dipost kt facebook....pape pn...doakan kebahagiaan kami berdua...xoxo....




Thursday, October 14, 2010

my life story after 10.10.10

salam to everyone...

i'm back!!!!...huhuhuh...after few weeks....here i am to write about me, myself and everyone that surrounds me....its friday today...no mood of working...just thinking of the weekends..but this weekend wont be as exciting as last week....no more karaoke..no more movies and no nothing for this weekend and so on....new life with new environment...i had to change my lifestyle and the important part is...i cant meet my dearest fiance everyday right after we get engaged....quite a weird feeling huh...before our engagement...we meet everyday...but not after we get engaged...i had to move out from shah alam and stay at my aunt house...2 reasons of moving out...1st...my aunt is going to mecca for haj....i had to take care of her daughter n 2 cats which i never touch before since that i dont like cats...i had to handle all her house matters....2nd...i moved out bcoz of the house rent at shah alam...from rm120-rm130...excluding the bill...all over will be around rm150...i wont mind if i really use all the facilities in that house...but the thing is...nope..i dont use the things coz i'm too bz with my things...i just use that house as a place to put all my stuff..sleep from 12am-6am...n take a bath before going to work...so...moving out is the best solution to avoid from wasting my money paying for nothing...wanna look for a cheaper house and move in by early of next year....by june...i will be staying with my husband i think...huhuhuh...hopefully i'll get use to all these things sooner or later...it's good actually...save a lot of money...and make me miss him more than before...we seldom meet..therefore...seldom quarrel...less talk doesnt mean less luv between me and him...maybe this is the time for us to be more matured and change ourselves... create the best life before we get married...god knows which is right for us...

a review of my engagement day on 10.10.10.....wait for my next post...huhuhuh..just wanna say...i miss my dear a lot...but i'm happy with everything right now...it is so fine for me staying with my grandma...at least i can take care of her...i can accompany my cousin as a way of paying my aunt kindness since that she always give me money...and i can learn to be a better person for my future husband...no more asking for this and that from him...no fighting and we still luv each other no matter how far we go apart...may god bless our relationship...xoxo....