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Thursday, August 26, 2010

it's friday....

da menjadi kebiasaan..asal hari jumaat jek pikir rumah...asal jumaat jek pikir rumah..da tak pikir benda lain...sejak aku msuk asrama mase form 1...kamis malam da packing barang nak balik rumah tak kirela minggu tu minggu dibenarkan balik ke tak...yang penting aku tetap nak balik rumah...padahal mase tu rumah belakang sekolah jek pun..bile aku pikir2 balik..ade ape dengan rumah?entah ek...rumah aku nak kate besa...besa la gak..klo kecik2 men sembunyi2 ngn yah mesti aku nangis sebab xkan jumpe die...hahahaha...tp xknla sebab uma besa aku suke sgt blk uma...hmmm...maybe sebab ade mama ngn papa...tp xjugak...kadang2 aku blk papa kua bwk teksi...mama g mesyuarat umno..aku tinggal sorang pn aku happy gak...pelik tol...mase form 3 aku taw aku suke blk uma kenape..sebab ade mawi kt dalam af...wajib tengok..so tu satu good reason la untuk aku syg rumah aku...tp sekarang..rumah sewa aku pun ade astro...xheran pun...so can someone explain to me...why i luv my home sweet home that much?susah nk jwb..aku rse sume org pn sme kot...spe xsyg rumah die da ley bakar da rumah tu...huhuhuh...

petang ni blk keje...my dear amik...then anta kuih kt uma encik pastu g buke kat mne2..right after buke gerak blk ke rumah..not my rumah...but my dear pny kampung...kan bes klo dapat blk uma sendiri...kat jb besh..ade giant..ade jusco...ade tesco...ade bowling...wlopun kt sini pn ade...tp stil xsame..hmmm..pelik tp benar...

senanye ape aku nak cakap ek...huhuhuh...da xde bnd nk wt men tulis jela pape yang aku rse nk tulis..iyela tuh xde bnd nk wt..byk jek kje...cume mim alip lam sin...lantakla...name pn jumaat...ilek suda..pas lunch ade gotong royong..besh nih gotong royong sambil goyang kaki...apela sgt y nk dibersihkan kt opis aku nih...cleaner da ade...sj jek kot bos aku tu bg can lepak..die tgk sume muke cam taik sebab kne keje pd ari y xsptutnye...ikutkn ati aku pn mls nk keje..rmai jek y amk mc..td aku dtg awl tryla ronda2 kt area cni..kot ade klinik y jual mc...hmmm..hmpeh..bek sgtla plk sume mnusie kt klinik tu xnk jual mc...so klo spe2 ley gtaw mne ade jual mc kasi roger k...huhuhuh...

hah...di kesempatan ni aku nak mengucapkan jutaan lemon terima kasih to all my sis...akk ampang...akk ptd...n adk gambang...andalah kekuatan kewangan sy...tanpe korang aku xkn mampu berdiri dengan tegak di samping bf ku y semakin kurang tegaknye disebabkan moral down to the ground...dr segi moral value...i've learn something...there's no one else who is much more closer to u...other than the one who share the same blood with u...xkirela betape kuat mne pn chemistry aku dgn my dear..but the truth is still the truth...no one can understand me better than my family...sorry my dear..u are no 2..huhuhuh...

to my sis in ampang...u are the wealthiest...smpai kne penalty ngn lhdn sbb wrong declaration..byk sgtla tuh...huuhuhu...wanna say thank you so muc...even though u always use the sentence ' ko da byk tolong aku'...hmmm...still rse nilai pertolongan dgn wet lain value die...i help in different way which is not related to money...but whatever it is..thanks a lot...i'll luv ur kids much more...hahahaha...to my ptd n gambang sis...thanks gak coz bersusah payah promo kuih rye kite untuk bantu mslh kewangan y tak putus2 melande...hmmm..nthla...apela nasib kite...

~~tibe2 sedey...baru pas call mama...sedey cite masalah sndri...tatawla mama dgr ke x aku ngs...suare mama pn cm sebak bile aku ckp something psl tunang...hmmm...mama nak offer wet...tp aku bkn stress psl wet pn..stkt nk mkn wet y akk aku bg ade ag...nth ek..stress psl ape?psl nk tunang???psl bf aku ilang gaji???arghhh...stress melande....da xmmpu nk berpikir secare rasional...jap g nak call mama ag...byk lagi y nk diluahkan...and mama mcm taw jek aku bru pas gdo ngn bf aku...bkn gdo...dingin...ble da stress...sume xkne...ckp nk tggi suare...ble tertinggi pitching ckt mulela hangin satu badan...sumenye uncontrolable...mgkin mama da byk pengalaman...die taw sume ni...aku xcte pn die da ley agk..thanks mama coz memahami...n sorry wlopn taun ni noi da start tp noi still xley bg wet rye kt mama...slp2 mama stil bg wet rye kt noi...alamak..ternangis suda..kang ade y da opis aku pelik...syyyyyyyyyy....stop crying...hush hush...

dhla...senanye nasib aku xdela malang mane pn...mungkin da biase dilimpahi kesenangan dan kemudahan...bile da idup sndri..belajar berdikari...mcm2 dugaan dan cabaran...tatawla aku da bersedie ke tak nak tunang or kwen...idup stil blom stabil...aku blm mmpu biasekn dri...dlu time bljr ade biasswa...xckp mama papa bg ag...bile skrg...xkn nk mntk ag...hmmmm....nthla...semoge sgalenye akn kembali normal...to my dear...i dh cube sdaye upaya mmhmi u...tp i ade thp kesabaran y rendah...plz treat me as before...as if we never had any problem..as if the money is still there...stop ur frustration...get back ur strength n come back to me as a stronger guy...i wont ask for more...juz wanna get my 'real' bf back...

tears is coming...should be better if i stop right here...hope the rain will stop...n giv a shine to make me smile as before...to bring back the happiness between us...and to make me really positive to get engage...i'm sorry my dear..it's not bcoz i dont want u...i just dont wanna get engage to a sad guy like what u are right now...change urself...make me smile...coz i really miss it damn much...

xoxo....

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

" u x rase ape i rase...u x tanggung ape i kendong..."

is there anything wrong with the sentence up there? nope...there is no problem at all...it can be said by anyone at anytime...but i wonder...how could this sentence make my tears flow like the rain...make me feel very dark in the heart as if the light of the trust for me to him had dissappear...

sometimes i'm wondering...why should we cry for someone else when we cant even cry for ourself...i'm not an always lucky girl....there's ups and down in my whole life...i had a time when i feel there's no one for me...i had a time when my purse left nothing accept the coins...i also had the time when i get a second last place in my class...i cried when i quarrel with my siblings...these are all the sad time of me for the whole 22 years...forget about all the downs and heartbroken things in relationship...i believe in one thing which is...i'm not alone...

in a relationship...luv is not a luv until u can really understand your partner's feelings...it is not a luv if u cant share the joy and tears...it is not a luv if u dont have any trust...and it is not a luv if u are not strong enough to luv yourself for the one u luv...

gosh...i'm still crying...i'm not the one who lost the money...then why should i cry?it's not my problem at all...it's not my money...it has nothing to do with me...but the tears just wont stop coz i can feel what u feel..." u x rse ape i rse..."..is it true?fine...if u really say that then i cant say anything...maybe i'm not supportive enough...i'm not useful enough to be by your side...and i'm just not a good girlfriend cause i didnt cry with u when u are crying...wanna know why? cause i dont wanna show the pain of u in me...we are together in everything...i didnt cry in front of u cause i cry for u when u cant see me...so that when i'm right in front of u...u can just see the smile without tears...to make u happy and forget the stress we both have...

i'm wondering...isnt a guy should be stronger in everything?The world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning. i want u to be strong...in every single thing..no matter what happen we will be together...but i just hate it when u say i dont get what u feel...it will be more pain to me to see u standing like a jelly bean...with the shining eyes of tears...with a wrinkles of pain on your forehead...and a smile that is really not meant to be called a smile...i'm crying too...i'm crying out loud...but u just cant hear it...cause the cry is not for u...the cry wont make u feel better...but the cry in my heart shows that i really feel what is there inside ur heart...

to my dearest...
i wrote this coz u really hurt me the moment u send the msg...i know there's nothing that i can do to help u...i cant cure ur pain...i cant get back the money for u...but i'm still here as ur girlfriend and i just want a strong guy to be my future partner for the rest of my life...to cope with anything that happens in the upcoming event of our life...hope u will be a stronger guy...u will get back to your normal life...get back to your work as usual...i know the money cost a month of your sweat...but god is trying...to giv us a better life with a lil bit of bitter moment....

'When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn. '...

xoxo...~~

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

what a girl wants to hear from a boy....

Ini gambar saye dengan acha...name penuh die acha septriasa...hahahaha...xdela...this is my unofficially sis....gambar ni amk mse husband die operate kaki...actually not going to review bout me n her...tadi bukak page die then scare x sengaje terview satu video...sweet video...just the words in slides but the words is very nice...it's a truth of what a girl actually want...it's hard to say it loud...but the fact is...we juz want few romantic words...it's simple words but with a deep meaning...read this out...

WHAT EVERY GIRL WANTS TO HEAR

girl: thanks for the fun day
boy: no prob
girl: can i ask u a few question...
boy: sure
girl: and be honest...

girl: have i ever crossed ur mind?
boy: no
girl: do u like me?
boy: no
girl: do u want me?
boy: no
girl: would u cry if i left?
boy: no
girl: would u live for me?
boy: no
girl: would u do anything for me?
boy: no
girl: choose me or ur life?
boy: my life

the girl ran away in shock depression...the boy ran after her and told her....

the reason u never crossed my mind because u are always in my mind..
the reason why i dont like u is because i love u..
the reason i dont want u is because i need u...
the reason why i wouldnt cry if u leave is because i'll die if u do....
the reason i wouldnt live for u is because i would die for u...
the reason i'm not willing to do anything for u is because i would do everything for u....
the reason i choose my life is because u are my life...

this words can really make a girl cry...sweetest thing that a girl ever dream of...memang btul orang kate...cakap lagi senang dr buat...its easy to say rather than do...but actually the sayings is already a perfect moment for a love story....to all those guys out there...love ur girl...share the sweetest words u ever think of...coz that means a lot...n to my dear...u know who u really are in my heart...the sweetest thing i can say to u is...i luv u more than u luv me..it's juz that i never learn how to show it...but i already learn how to keep it as one of my wonderful part in me...to be sensitive is to show that i need ur luv...in every single way that satisfy me...sory for everything...i luv u..n please dear...stop the big words...i hate it when u get angry...n i hate it when u make me angry...juz a small apology already can create a big smile of me...

"pujuk-memujuk...rayu-merayu..aku tak tahu aku cemburu..."....

and not to forget...this post is meant for all of my frens n family whose in a relationship...spit out all the love words to your beloved one coz i'm going to do it tonite...hahhahah...xoxo...

Monday, August 9, 2010

selamat ulang tahun sayang....


Yang tulus ikhlas
Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas
Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu

Yang selalu memberi
Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima
Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa

Aku ingin kau merasakan hebatnya cinta
Dan leburkan saja serpihan calar derita

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Kini kau bersayap, pergilah terbang
Rentaslah langit cita cita mu
Harap nanti kita 'kan bertemu

Selamat ulang tahun sayang
Janganlah engkau tak terbang pulang
Ku nanti penuh kerinduan
Selamat tinggal, selamat jalan

Aku hanya inginkan engkau setia
Kerana setia yang mencipta bahagiamu

080810: happy 27th birthday to my dearest...mohd isharudin abd halim... u are 27 years and one day old today...nothing much that i can say...hope that u will be happy always...with glorious and prosper life...2 days i treat u like a king and now i get my crown back...hahahhaha..juz joking...i think i had perfectly arrange your birthday with bowling,present, card, cake, letter and a trip to bukit tinggi...some more with the winning of man u over chelsea last nite...i had arrange that too..juz 4 u...hahhahaha....luv u so muc...that is all i can afford...luv me more and i get u more next year...hahahah...juz in case my Ampang sis read this...thanks for your donation...hahahaha...thanks to fauzi salleh too coz treat me n my bf for birthday dinner at Cerana...and to my younger sis, thanks for being here to celebrate my bf's birthday...u all guyz complete the day...and my dearest bf...may god bless both of us...xoxo....:)

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

10.10.10

Loves is unpredictable... The best thing about loving and being hurt is that you get to know what true love really is. For as gold is tested in fire, and so will love be perfected in pain.

kisah cinte aku dan si dia...orang kate cinte di internet hanye bawe pade keburukan....tp cinte aku dan si dia....berputik dan disemai setiap hari dengan kerenah2 luar biase aku tapi disejukkan oleh siraman kasih sayang n pujukan si dia....

alif daniel....aku kenal kt myspace...mase ni aku jakon bru dapat laptop...sanggup g fakulti engine nk wifi...time tu tgh gile ngn myspace...selagi umat aku aku accept as friend....termasukla si alif daniel ni....die taw aku student uitm....and entah bagaimane die ley taw sume detail pasal aku....aku cool ag...time ni aku still ade boyfriend....so ilek2 jek ngn c alif ni....xlame pastu aku dpt taw die staff...ekeleh mamat ni...pdnla sume bnd psl aku die taw....

first date...kat kamal....baru pas men futsal katenye...aku g lepak...die ngn mmbr die...xberani dtg tego pn...dok meje lain...then anta msg...apsal nmpk gemuk...wtf...mamat ni cm bagus jek ckp aku gemuk....nasibla time tu aku xde ati ag kt die...tp skt ati glela...then aku blah...

second date....kat ani sup utare....entah cmne nth ley msg mse tu....aku deal nk blnje die mkn....die bwk ahmad pintu....mse tu lagi sekali die sakitkan ati aku..aku pkai sua 3quarter ngn sweater...die tny nk ikut x g tesco..aku ckp xnkla pkai cmni...then ade ke ptut die ckp..aah ek...xpyhla..serabai...geramnye!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!aku blk uma dgn panas atinye....nasibla pstu ade date ngn org len...so ape aku kisah ngn mamat nih....cm bagus....

mulai ari tuh...kitorang juz chat kt myspace jek...chatting kt ym...no fon pn aku xbg..die still ade gf..aku pn ade bf...tp same2 tgh goyah....lme gak ktrg stay cmtu...member..share prob...then lme2 aku anggap die cm abg memandangkan umo die ag tua dr akk aku y second....klimaks...bile aku clash ngn bf aku...n die pn clash ngn gf die...aku pn xsure aku n die clash sbb ktrg suke each other or mmg da xserasi dgn partner msg2...orang kate dalam hati ade taman...dari mate turun ke hati...bile da selalu jumpe...makan same2....lunch...dinner...tibe2 aku rse pelik...sbb ble die xde rse len mcm....hmmmm....petande buruk....

konflik: bile aku ade skandal len....he's not my no 1 since that mse tu aku cm rse die still syg gf die...but the biggest prob is...skandal aku tu hanyelah skandal...xmatang....si die plak...berlagak gile babeng...ayat die y aku xkn lupe....'i wont fall in luv wit u coz u ni budak kecik'....fine....budak kecik ni gk y u carik setiap detik dalam idup u sekarang...hahahahah....victory to me....

we still go on...aku ade sang skandal n si dia....stiap ari aku ade 2 date..klo lunch ngn die dinner ngn si skandal...very the scandalous...tp mase mematangkan kite....aku dapat bezakan mane kace mane permate....so aku pn bertekad tumpu pd y satu....i choose him...alif daniel....

bout that name...tu bukan name sebenar k...aku dapat taw pn setelah bpe lme kenal...kantoi kad keje die...ISHARUDIN>>>>>>>>????????...sapekah???damn...tipah tertipu...tp da xmmpu nk tuka panggilan tu...fmily sume da kenal dengan nme tu....so juz let it be...alif pn alif la....

1 persamaan antare aku dan die....kitorang suke jejalan....klo sunway tu...mmg da jadik uma no 2 kitorang..stiap ari abs kelas g sunway...wiken ckp jek nk mkn ape...ktne...tanjung lumpur??zooommm terus g pahang..nk mkn dekat ckt...terus g pd....senang kate...bibit percintaan kitorang lahir mase dlm kete kot...tdo dlm kete kt r&r perkare bese....bgn2 da siang....teruskan perjalanan jalan2....menarik sgt....bhv1817 amat membantu dalam hubungn kitorang...:)

070209.....kat genting....jalan2....tibe2 si dia ckp...ape kate kite caple....hmmmm....dlm ati aku...yessssssssssss.....akhirnye mamat ni cair kat budak kecik....hahahahhaah.....tp aku xdela ckp cmtu...ilek ag...ikutkan ati xnk...tp disebabkan memorandum si dia....gosh...aku tny ape aku dapat klo caple ngn die....die ckp....

1)die akan tunaikan kehendak aku utk kawen dgn hantaran 15k....
2)die akan wt jalan raye dari uma aku sampai surau....
3)die akan wt tadika utk kemudahan anak2 kitorang kt blkg uma nnt....
n few things y aku xbpe ingt sbb mse ni aku da acek pk y 1st tu jek....hahahahahah.....

rpe2nye y no 2 n 3 tu memorandum gle...uma aku kt joho mmg dkt ngn surau...so da mmg ade jlnrye....n blkg uma aku mmg da ade tadika....tp mmndgkn aku ni materialistik,...aku terime....:)

orang kate...money is everything..kassim selamat kawen tp xbhgie sbb xde wet....memorandum die wt aku sgt terharu....so sayang y terbine dr hubungan abg n adik berubah jdk cinte....aku da lpe psl memorandum pertame tu sbb aku dh dpt lebih dr tu...ckp jek ape...hp..lptop...mkn mnum aku sume ditanggung....kitorang teruskan kehidupan sbg kekasih..penuh ranjau dan duri..bersame mslh kewangan n perngai aku y nth pape...alhamdulillah...die msih mmpu bersabar...

n smpai sekarang...rasenye xde org lain y lbih layak utk aku sayangi selain si dia...klo ade org y mmpu thn dgn prangai aku ni...mksudnye org tu mmg gile...n that unfortunate guy is the one that i am willingly to get married with...

untuk tatapan isharudin sayang...@ alif daniel...thanks for loving me...n sudi jadikan i teman u...semoge hubungan kite kekal selamenye...101010 ni akan jadi titik permulaan untuk cinte kite...luv u so muc....xoxo....