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Sunday, September 19, 2010

Ape ade pade nombor.....

which is better? a lie that draws a smile.... or the truth that draws the tears.... i choose the truth...coz i want people to understand the tears that i had wasted for one whole night yesterday.....

what lies in numbers??the date...the amount...the quantity...every single number is important for me...even the numbers on the coins is big shit worthy to me....so when people asked me...whats there in number...i can say that...the number that i had chosen for the important event of my life is just worthy as the money that i cant bear to make it go away as it like...we planned...we can choose whatever the path of our life...and we had the right to make our life wonderful with the numbers n colors.. i can choose my own dress color for every event...n i had my own desire to get the best number for everything that i want it to be....

15k....anyone who had been in luv with me would knew how i really like this damn number...it's my price...so what...take it or leave it...it's my pride...and it's ur cost to get me...but not this price that we are arguing of...its about the damn fucking date that i had chosen since he bought me the ring...3 types of human being that i am very dislike to be born on the earth which are:
- people who like to show off with the things that is very affordable to me...as if i cant buy it...i just dont like it and dont wanna waste my money to buy it..not because i can afford it...
- people who like to underestimate other people...saying like u are the best...talking like i'm the ass and u are the asshole...looking for someone else imperfectness....gosh...go to heaven if u think u are damn good...good luck coz i dont think u are perfect enough to even smell the sweetness of that place...
-the third type of person that i wish i can make this person vanish from my sight is the one who shout out at my face while i'm very politely speaking without any high pitch of my voice....god...i feel like making that person mute at that time...dont shout at me when i'm still cool...dont make me angry when we can still explain things to each other and get a solution for a damn small matter...

101010....girls and dude who had read my post previously...some of u are still wondering what the date meant...and now i will just expose it...it is MY PLAN n MY OWN desire....not anyone else....i want the date to be the day i am engaged...it's my big day...so what...and here is the prob...i had to change the date which is just 3 weeks to go...why???coz HE said...i'm not the one who's traveling...i am just the characterless girl who waits at home to be engaged...and this really explode my anger...HELLL-OOOO....it's my day...u can respect ur family but please respect my decision too coz i really want that fucking date as what i'm concern...i had my own family who need to be respected too...this engagement is a 2 family matters...if u cant even take care of this tiny desire of my heart...how do u think u wanna fulfill the dozens of hearts after this??

actually...i'm not that really stone-hearted girl as other people think that i am to be...i can be kind...i can follow as what u want...but with a nice and polite talk...not with that kind of throwing ur tantrum over a thing which is not yet decided by me...i need my space...give me some time...it's my day n i can do whatever i want...u can speak nicely and it is not impossible for me to change the date as what u want...but please dear...u did not do as the way i want it to be...thanks for everything...

for what u may know...i had called my mom...u can discussed it with papa later coz i'm not going to change it...i want that fucking damn date coz u really had hurt my feeling..i can change it but in my own way...but since u choose the 'shout out' kind of discussion...fine with me...i will stick to that date no matter what happen....take it or leave it...and this is the end of OUR discussion...since u didnt give me any space for explanation..here i am...my blog is the only solution...u wont talk..i wont speak any single words regarding this...it ends here...

p/s: my dream guy is a guy who can speak nicely to me...who know how to make me smile while i'm crying....but that is just a dream of my dream....bukan kate nak pujuk...nak say sorry pun susah...mampu ke kite bertahan?god please answer me...am i ready for all this?~~~~

2 comments:

Milly said...

yup! stand for our (women) rights!

Kawen nnt jgn lupe jemput ok! ^ ^

liyana said...

sdih plak aku bc..huahahha..biase le tuh.byk tol dugaan dlm idop nih..tp kalo kte x ready skang,kte ready ke nnti??we have ge thru all dis stuff coz in future there are more and more and more ans do many things we have to get thru with rite?so,byk kn bersbr k..Allah will always help u..
:D